I am a jehovah witness who is being shuned for looking into my faith (apostsay) . i need a scriptual defense.?

i have been a devoted j.w. for 20 years, but for many reasons i have recently walked away from my faith. now i am being shuned and will likely be disfellowshiped on the grounds of apostasy. i have also decided to start dating a man not of my faith. i feel so sad that my friends love for me was not unconditional love. they wont have anything to do with me as if im saten himself. i love god, but i have some doughts and concern about my faith and i fear i will be disfellowship and was hoping someone could help me find scriptures to show my friends that they can still love and talk with me even though i question our faith.